Emails
Just going through my emails today and decided to post some stuff.
QUARTER- LIFE CRISIS
I got this from a mailing list I subscribe to from a Toronto event promoter, ian andre espinet. If you’d like to subscribe, go here: www.amnesia.ca
“The quarter life crisis:
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.”
Something else I got in my email:
Tell Starbucks to Give Ethiopian Farmers Their Fair Share
Each year, coffee companies make billions of dollars. Starbucks alone earned almost $5.8 billion in net revenues during the first three quarters of 2006.
With as many as 15 million Ethiopians dependent on coffee, Ethiopia has decided to get its farmers more of what they deserve. The country’s government has asked Starbucks to sign a licensing agreement that will allow Ethiopia to control the names of its coffees. That way, Ethiopia can help determine an export price that makes sure farmers see a larger share of the profits enabling them to feed their children, send them to school and get them better healthcare.
Oxfam and a coalition of allies are asking Starbucks to sign this agreement. According to one coalition member, control of the name brands could increase Ethiopia’s coffee export income by more than 25 percent – or $88 million annually. This money could go a long way to help lift millions of Ethiopians out of poverty.
So please, help us convince Starbucks to sign this agreement with Ethiopia. Poor farmers deserve a fair share of the profits. (http://act.oxfamamerica.org/campaign/starbucks_mtf?rk=OpS-Esp11E2OW)
The men of R&B
Whenever, Wherever, Whatever – Maxwell
I Wish – Carl Thomas
This song makes cheating sound so romantic!!
How Does it Feel – D’angelo
it’s a damn shame what happened to him
Only for the lonely? or something new?
So after some thought and consideration I decided to take the plunge and try out online dating. After meeting two guys recently in “real life” that didn’t turn out to be any more special than the ones I’ve known before (I shall elaborate in a later post) I decided what the heck! What’s the worst that could happen? I’ve met plenty of crazies offline, why not take a stab at the dating pool online?
I have to admit, I still felt a little wierd about it so I didn’t put a picture on my profile. I actually didn’t put much information on my profile at all because I didn’t really want anyone to contact me. I just wanted to be able to contact other people. The first guy I sent a message to never bothered to reply. I was offended! and was already ready to quit! But I decided to try again after I realized that this guy seemed to have a thing for “girls gone wild” types. The site allows you to see what member pictures they have rated and let’s just say, the girls that he was looking at…..well, I don’t think we would have had much in common anyway.
So I sent messages to two other guys that seemed “normal” and awaited a response. I received replies from both of them but have only chatted with one so far over the last week or so. I was pleasantly surprised that we were able to have a decent conversation despite the unconventional meeting grounds. We’ve chatted several times since then I have to say, he seems pretty interesting and we haven’t even talked on the phone yet! I actually feel a bit giddy when I get a new email. Anyway, I’m not sure where it’s going to go but right now, I’m just going with the flow.
So my issue here…is this an act of desperation? or a wave of the future? I guess I still feel like it’s only for the slightly desperate considering I didn’t really tell too many people about it (but I guess whoever reads my blog knows now!) It’s funny, the different reactions between the men and the women in regards to online dating. My female friends were skeptical, I got lots of warnings to be careful, some disapproving looks. I heard a lot of “I wouldn’t do it but…” My male friends were totally different. One cheerfully asked, “So when are you going to meet him??” and the other told me of a family member that met his wife on a dating site and are now on their second child.
Half of me thinks it’s great. What other social setting could you be in where you have access to a smorgasboard of men and I get to look at them all without them bothering me and I choose who I want to talk to. The other half of me feels silly, like has it really come to this?? Has too many episodes of Dateline’s To Catch a Predator series left a bad taste on the idea of meeting someone online?
It’s fun on a stick!
Am I the only one that thinks this is gross?
I’ve been trying to eat healthier these days but I do have a weakness for junk food like chips, chocolate, cake, etc. However, I don’t think this is one junk food item that I would have problems turning this down.
Jimmy Dean Pancakes & Sausage
“Jimmy Dean full-flavored sausage inside a sweet pancake covering – it’s fun on a stick. Just pop these sweet treats in the microwave for less than 2 minutes and you’ll have a hearty breakfast or snack that’s not only filling but easy to eat and enjoy. Available in 14 and 18 count boxes.” (jimmydean.com)
It comes in chocolate chip as well
I don’t think I would even want to eat a chocolate chip pancake by itself.
(original source)
If it’s not one thing it’s another!
You know the old saying, “when it rains it pours”? Well, it’s pouring right now. I guess I’ll just wash my blues aways with some 90s jams.
I’m Ready – Tevin Campbell
I Got Cha Opin – Black Moon
Why I Love You So Much – Monica
Last weekend
Sometimes persistence can be a good thing and other times it’s just annoying. At the restaurant I went to last Sunday, I noticed the waiter seemed to be giving me a little extra special attention but I didn’t really pay it no mind. When we went to pay the bill, the waiter is trying to strike up some conversation with me. First he asks me where I live, then asks me what I do for a living. I said I was trying to find a job in web design. I guess he saw that as a legitimate opportunity to get my number. He suggested I give him my number and he can get a job for me at the Bay (department store) and I look at him like uh…didn’t I just say web design? I told him it was okay, I wanted to stick to the web design field but he kept pressuring me to give him my number under the guise of helping me find a job. He asked me why I didn’t want to try something new after I kept turning down his job offers and his requests to get my number. He finally just gave me the restaurant’s business card with him name on it.
I’m really not into older men. I’m 27 so 30s is my cap. If you got a big old bald spot on the back of your head or look like you should have high school aged children, then please, spare me. And I look like I’m 19-21 years old, so these old men really don’t need to be trying to talk to me. Plus I don’t really like when men I don’t know ask me right off the bat where I live. I don’t know if you a crazy stalker! I guess sometimes I can be a bit paranoid but I’d rather err on the side of caution.
The restaurant was nice but I’ll have to make sure that I bring a date with me the next time I go back!
So we head over to the club and as we are walking there, some guys were trying to get our attention. It was funny, the girls and I were joking around about how Toronto girls are known to be mean and difficult to talk to. I guess we were all trying to be a little nicer and actually stopped for a change. The guys turned out to be pretty nice and even got us into the club for free! Luckily we didn’t pay any cover charge because the party got shut down just before 2am. Some alleged problem with the club being over capacity, even though it really wasn’t even that crowded inside. We decided to leave after we saw a cop unessesarily shove a club patron in the face and onto the street. We later found out that the party had resumed after we left 
OH well.
Overall, we had a fun night. I guess it pays to be nice to people sometimes!
Nothing to say today
Well, not much to say. Still smarting over dealing with crazy people.
Here are the videos:
You Gots to Chill – EPMD
Get On Up – Jodeci
I’m So Into You – SWV
There are some fashion styles that seem to make sense at the time, but I never understood the fencing outfits…
Job blues
So I said I would update on why I was jobless again but there was so much drama with this place that I’d rather just not say anything at all. Just picture a bad first day of work and then multiply it by 1000 and maybe you can imagine what’s it’s been like for me. To quote one of the Project Runway contestants, “It was the nightmare of my life!” I’m going to go relax now and hope that this is the end of it and that I will never have to go through something like this again.
Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving!
I don’t really celebrate Thanksgiving much but I figured someone reading this might! But I enjoy the long weekend, even though I don’t work a regular 9-5 job.
Speaking of jobs, that job I got last week turned out to be one royal pain in the ass! It was so horrible, I wanted to quit after 2 hrs. It’s not like me to give up so easily but after some careful consideration and advice from others, I gave my resignation after just one day. This place was drama and a half. There are some places that you expect to be shady like telemarketing jobs but an alleged web design company?? Oh well, at least I have my freelance job to hold me over for a bit.
I will have to blog about that place but I’m going out tonight so I have to start getting ready soon. Maybe tonight will provide me with some more bloggable stories!
OK so I lied
I was too lazy to cook today so my roommate and I went out to this yummy Somalian restaurant and it’s kind of out of the way so it took us some time to get there and back. And then when we came back, we watched America’s Next Top Model. And then the Beach was on CityTV, so we watched that. Basically what I’m trying to say is that is my excuse for not posting yesterday. Because I know there are about 3 people that actually depend on me to write something so here it is! I’m combining my Throwback Thursdays with a regular post today. So let’s get the video out of the way first.
Gotta Get You Home – Foxy Brown feat Blackstreet
I went to Buffalo over the weekend to visit the Marrieds (my married friend). I was reminded of something said in Bridget Jone’s Diary and Sex and the City that married friends end up living vicariously through their single friend’s dating exploits. I kept my friend up til 3am telling her all about my bad dates and other aspects of living the Singleton life. We went to the mall and I wanted to go to Victoria’s Secret and Bakers shoes and she wanted to check out the Pottery Barn and some children’s clothing store. She kept apologizing for being “boring” but I like boring! Just because I’m single, doesn’t mean I want to be dancing on table tops every night! I was actually looking forward to watching TV, eating, playing with the baby and going shopping. If that is considered “boring” then that is okay by me.
I took the Greyhound bus part of the way down. The bus driver made this big “don’t smoke in the bathroom” announcement. Some smart ass decided they were going to smoke in the bathroom anyway. The driver then made another announcement that when someone smokes in the bathroom, it blows through the vent, particularly in the front. He also stated that he doesn’t care about the law, he just doesn’t like the smoke (or something to that effect) and that the person better get their shit cause he is stopping the bus and the person was to get off and make their own arrangements.
Now me being the nosy person that I am, I wanted to know who it was that couldn’t wait 15 minutes til we got to our destination to have a smoke. But I wanted to be inconspicous and not be craning my neck down the aisle. The driver walked up to the girl in front of me and informed her that she had to leave. He didn’t drop her off in the middle of nowhere though, it was at a bus station at least and I didn’t have to crane by neck to see who it was. Maybe because I absolutely detest smoking but I can’t say I feel much sympathy for her.
So now I’m back in Toronto, taking the wretched 36 Finch bus to a job interview (I got the job and start Friday!!!) and I got one of them cranky bus drivers. This lady asked him if the 36 goes to someplace and said “No, it’s the 107″ to which she replies “Does it stop here?” The bus driver is sounding all nice when he is talking to her and telling her that yes is does stop here. As soon as he closes the door he says, “And so does Christmas…”
Anyway, here’s a bonus video for those who were nice enough to read the entire post 
Travellin’ Man – DJ Honda & Mos Def
Soon Soon
was in Buffalo this past weekend… will post later today after I get some sleep!
